It’s been tricky to stick to a weekly blogging schedule. I feel stuck sometimes because I don’t know what to write about and I get all up in my head about it.
I want to be helpful. I want to be funny. I don’t want to be too much of a downer. Should I try to teach something? Share a tool? List some resources?
When I start to spin like this I go onto social media and fall into the void. Then nothing gets written. Naturally.
I am reminded of some sage advice that came through the higher self of someone I was coaching the other day:
Chill out and stop overthinking it.
So I’ve decided that if I’m stuck, I’ll just check in. This blog is called Being Amy after all. So, I don’t know, I guess I’ll just be Amy.
I’ve been up and down the past few weeks. Lots of old stuff coming up that I thought I had cleared. I’ve been swimming around in the old patterns, comparing myself to other people, feeling unseen, acting graspy for validation, etc.
I don’t know why all these old patterns are coming up but the good news is that I’m getting quite skillful at just seeing it play out with a kind of detached curiosity — no judging, no trying to make it go away.
So that’s a #win.
Simultaneously, the endlessly curious part of me, the one with the incredibly high bullshit detector, who goes digging for truth, has been learning things about the world, dark, dark shit that she thought was pure conspiracy, that she’s now beginning to see is not, stuff that takes a lot of courage to face.
In a nutshell, I’m seeing the shadows in me and the shadows around me.
Then trying not to fall into a state of dread. I do this by reminding myself that without LIGHT, it’s impossible to SEE.
What hides in the shadows, remains in the shadows.
So I honor the LIGHT that shines into the dark and reveals the truth.
As heavy as it is, and as scary as it may be to face, I have the courage to look.
So here’s to the light. May it continue to shine into the darkest corners. May we. all have the courage to see what’s there.
Many of us are shining light in the dark and becoming aware of all the shadows. It issanity saving to realise that people we trust are seeing the same shadows Do not be afarid of shining your light and being Amy.
The recent astrology has been perfect for bringing up old stuff to keep clearing. Look how in the flow you are ❤️
Thank you for “just being Amy”…I loved your latest email. Being honest is more inspiring than any offer of a “tool/resource” etc in my opinion.
Perhaps there is something going on in the cosmos eg astrologically/sunspots etc (which I know nothing about) that is affecting you and probably everyone – whether anyone is conscious of that possibility or not.
I think it is perfectly ok to not have anything specific to write about or have no desire to write regular blogs/be ‘teaching’ and so on. Everyone needs a break at times no matter how much they usually enjoy doing something.
Love and best wishes to you and I hope joy is pouring into you and your life to help you shine an even more radiant light into all the dark areas!
We don’t have to “do” anything. Just “be”. Such a relief to let go of guilt around that, after it being drummed into many of us that we “must” always be busy and achieving if we want to ‘count’ or ‘not waste our life’.
I so appreciate your words! Thank you Jenni!